Living In My Private Hell

Co-occuring disorder or dual diagnosis is the condition of an individual suffering from some form of mental illness in addition to comorbid substance abuse problems. This book demonstrates the trials and tribulations experienced by unrecognized co-occuring disorder and the use of alcohol to self-medicate the issue. Another component of this story deals with the discomfort of paralyzing anxiety and suicidal depression and the ability of our mental health to control our lives. Co-occuring disorders are very misunderstood conditions that when undiagnosed can lead to a lifetime of frustration, trauma, and hell.

Beaten and abused, talked to worse than a dog, do I stay with my husband, or do I take our sons and run away? Do I just give up my husband to his mistress, or fight to keep him? Do I forgive him and do we live happily ever after? To find out, read the book to see into my own private hell.

A riveting portrait of a rural Pennsylvania town at the center of the fracking controversy Shale gas extraction—commonly known as fracking—is often portrayed as an energy revolution that will transform the American economy and geopolitics. But in greater Williamsport, Pennsylvania, fracking is personal. Up to Heaven and Down to Hell is a vivid and sometimes heartbreaking account of what happens when one of the most momentous decisions about the well-being of our communities and our planet—whether or not to extract shale gas and oil from the very land beneath our feet—is largely a private choice that millions of ordinary people make without the public's consent. The United States is the only country in the world where property rights commonly extend "up to heaven and down to hell," which means that landowners have the exclusive right to lease their subsurface mineral estates to petroleum companies. Colin Jerolmack spent eight months living with rural communities outside of Williamsport as they confronted the tension between property rights and the commonwealth. In this deeply intimate book, he reveals how the decision to lease brings financial rewards but can also cause irreparable harm to neighbors, to communal resources like air and water, and even to oneself. Up to Heaven and Down to Hell casts America’s ideas about freedom and property rights in a troubling new light, revealing how your personal choices can undermine your neighbors’ liberty, and how the exercise of individual rights can bring unintended environmental consequences for us all.

I was a fun-loving grandmother who would go out of my way to create wonderful memories and adventures for my grandchildren. Unfortunately, I suffered a very unexpected debilitating health crisis, and it took me a while to get back on my feet. I was thrilled when I was finally able to regain my independence and move into a new apartment. I was beginning to feel like my old self again until one fateful night when the unthinkable happened. I was too embarrassed to tell anyone because I was afraid that nobody would believe me. I felt totally alone and I was in my own private hell. I was terrified that my nightmare would never end. I knew that if someone very close to me told me this same story, I would feel confused and helpless about what to say or how to get them help. It was just one of those secrets that nobody would be able to keep. They would have to tell someone because if they didn't, something terrible could happen and someone could get seriously hurt or even worse. My secret was revealed late one night in the most humiliating way that I could have ever imagined. Every word of this unbelievable story is true, and I write about it in vivid detail because that is exactly how I remember it. The undying help and support from my children inspired me to share my story. I wanted to let other people who have gone through this know that they are not alone.

Have you ever had a blanket of darkness come over you so that you feared surviving? Have you ever felt so helpless and hopeless that tomorrow was a burden to bear not a day to anticipate? Human suffering is a complex and devastating experience. In Out of Hiding: Grace is Still Enough, Barbara Welch examines the Nazi Holocaust and Childhood Abuse as the benchmarks of ultimate human suffering—suffering imposed on a person through the hideous atrocities of others. Out of Hiding takes the reader into the inner workings of the human condition. It also encourages us with the good news that there is hope, and it is found in the power of God's Grace as He works through healers. You will be inspired as you see God taking care of the most wounded of those who have been reduced and depersonalized at the hands of others.

Symptom checklist included in appendix A.

Have you ever had a dream dashed by a challenge or mental illness? Have you ever felt like giving in or gripped by fear that all is lost? Have you defined success in your life or have you let others define it? Have you failed to meet someones expectations? Success can be defined in many different ways. Or success can be redefined based on current circumstances. Part I of this book is about my struggle with mental health issues that challenged a dream and required me to redefine success for my life. This book takes you through my journey and also provides tips for succeeding in aspects of everyday life. In my work as a Peer Support Specialist I have encountered consumers who have been committed to the largest forensic state hospital in Texas. Many of them have been convicted of crimes. The mental illness these consumers experience and the crimes they have committed are only part of who they are and do not define them as a person. They have dreams like anyone else. Their dreams may be on a different scale. For them, success may come in small steps toward wholeness and reconciliation with self and society. My job is to instill hope in their lives as someone who has been through the mental health system and who has emerged from the other side experiencing recovery. Part II of this book is a collection of inspirational devotions on the topic of success in different practical areas. Some examples include success with anxiety, success with depression, and success with loneliness. They are each based on the Christian Scriptures and are filled with an abundance of relevant illustrations. Anyone who has wondered about how their faith is related to real life will be able to identify with these inspirational pieces.

With the floodgate of response from readers of Friesen's ÒUncovering the Mystery of MPDÓ comes this cutting edge book of true stories of Multiple Personality clients told in their own words. A testimony to the healing power of God-centered therapy, ÒMore Than SurvivorsÓ offers continued hope to therapists and clients alike.